Today I did nothing remotely resembling anything productive. I got up at 12:30, annoyed my sister, drank iced coffee, complained about the lunch today (which was shit, fuck you cater care,) listened to music, and watched TV. I probably should have done something useful that would make me a better person, read an improving book, studied or something. People have an innate desire for self improvement. Whole industries are based on that fact, advertising constantly targets people's insecurities about themselves to get them to buy more crap. People go to work in order to make more money so they can become better people. Everyone has a desire to improve something about themselves. People make a lot of money by claiming if you follow their particular brand of belief you can improve your soul, and go to a far better place after you die. Personally I wish I was richer, better looking, more motivated, stronger, and more intelligent. However, I can't be bothered to change anything to improve anything about myself. Here's why:
There is always someone better than you.
There is always going to be someone out there who is richer, better looking, more interesting and smarter that you. That is simply a fact of life. Envy is a central trait in the human psyche, and the fact that there are a lot of people out there who are essentially better than you probably pisses you off, if only subconsciously. If you attempt to improve yourself you will probably feel that fact more keenly. No matter how much you work, how much you sacrifice to become a better person someone will always beat you. I have simply decided to accept the fact that there are people out there who, for some reason, are just better people. I really can't be bothered to compete with them.
The desire for self improvement will only make you unhappy.
Everyone is unhappy with who they are. No one hasn't dreamed of becoming a better person somehow. Even if your like me and really couldn't give a fuck and don't care too much, other people will put pressure on you, today my little sister who is 16 told me that I “should stop fucking around, get a job, and work hard at uni.” (Solid advice which I won't take.) Actually trying to improve yourself or your situation will only probably make yourself more unhappy. Mainly because your probably going to fail. A few weeks ago I tried to improve my health by trying to quit smoking, I lasted two days.
If your perfect, people will hate you.
I have known people who are amazingly academic, good at sport, popular, and had plenty of money, and whats more weren't even arrogant. Did other people generally like them? No, most people looked at them and thought “what utter shits.” Jealousy is an ugly, but essentially natural human trait. Tall poppy syndrome is deeply ingrained in our society. People naturally detest people who think they are, or actually are, better than themselves. Whats the point of striving for perfection when if if you come close to it everyone will think your a complete dickhead?
There isn't any real point.
If your able to read this, your probably doing a lot better than most people. While there is always someone better than you, there's probably heaps of people far more shit; basically your probably fine how you are. For example while my fashion sense is far from perfect, I haven't met anyone who has a beanie quite as good as mine. Also it doesn't really matter how good you are because at the end of the day your going to end up rotting in a six foot hole anyway. As Tom Waits sings “your all going to be just dirt in the ground.” (It's an amazing song, listen to it.)
Self improvement is hard work, I really can't be fucked.
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